Who Knew? Abundance Is Being Yourself Without Apology
May 15, 2026
Recently, the words 'I give myself permission to be rich' came to me spontaneously in meditation, prompting an inexplicable flood of giggles.
Hmmmm... I thought. Why do I feel so impishly delighted with myself?
I give myself permission to be rich. I repeated a few times. In other words, the words revealing their true meaning as I spoke them, I give myself permission to be more of myself. I AM the wealth.
More giggles cascaded through me like champagne bubbles.
It was my body's response to the simple truth that appeared strikingly, humorously obvious all the sudden. Like when you've been staring at a crossword for twenty minutes not seeing the word, feeling thick as a brick, and then all at once it jumps out at you.
Skip ants. Skip ants?? That doesn't make any sense. Check the down clues... yes, that's all correct. Skip ants? I don't get it. Something must be wrong.
OH!!! SKI PANTS!
DUH!!!!
This is how the truth about abundance revealed itself to my understanding, almost casually.
I give myself permission to be rich. Not just rich in money.
Rich in life. Rich in presence. Rich in being. Because I already AM rich. It's all in me already.
They weren't just words anymore. They rang through me with the unmistakable clarity of lived truth — clear and resonant as a temple bell.
But for many people, those words don’t land as freedom.
They land as tension, hesitation, contraction. A quiet voice that asks: Who do you think you are? That isn't very spiritual. Yeah, yeah, you've said it all before. Tell that to your bills.
That reaction is not random. It reveals something deeper. We have been conditioned to mistrust abundance -- and certainly to mistrust that it comes from within us. Instead, we've been taught to associate it with something exterior to ourselves that must be 'got'. It has been linked to struggle, to excess, to selfishness, even danger. To receive fully can feel unfamiliar, unsafe, unjust to some invisible other.
The thorniness around abundance — the feeling that we must pursue it shamefully, guiltily, or selfishly — is itself part of the distortion.
It keeps us endlessly chasing, endlessly “working on” our abundance blocks, while remaining oblivious to abundance’s true locus:
Within ourselves. AS ourselves.
What if abundance is simply the natural expression of wholeness?
A fruit tree does not question whether it is allowed to bear fruit. It does not ration its output. It does not apologize for its fullness. It simply expresses what it is. And in that expression, there is natural abundance.
Which leads to a deeper realization:
Abundance is not something you acquire. It is what happens when you stop withholding yourself.
Or even more simply: Abundance is being yourself without apology.
Not the curated self. Not the acceptable self. Not the strategic, careful, self-protecting version. Nor am I advocating walking all over people 'without apology'.
I'm talking about the alive self. The real self underneath the programming.
The one that wants to create, to love, to express, to expand. To be seen without shrinking. The one we see and adore in children, before they stop being naturally themselves.
At the center of this is the heart—not as a sentimental space, but as a generative one. A still point within you where nothing is missing; a place that feels like rest… but is actually the effortless source of creation.
Some have called this a “zero-point”—a term used to describe a field of infinite potential that exists even in what appears to be empty space. Whether we understand it scientifically or not, the principle is powerful.
Because if that field exists everywhere…it exists within us. And from that place, creation does not come from striving.
It comes from alignment. From coherence. From being.
This is why so much of what we call “manifestation” falls short. Because even if it teaches the concept of wholeness, when we take it on in our incomplete state, it often begins from lack. From the feeling that something is missing, or that something needs to be acquired in order to feel whole. After all, isn't that why we buy books and take courses and listen to videos from abundance gurus?
But creation from lack tends to recreate lack. True conscious creation arises from fullness. And yet, paradoxically, that fullness cannot be taught.
It's more about remembering. About feeling the quiet knowing:
I am already whole.
And from that place, something begins to move, emerge, express, as more life. More truth. More me. More Source within seeking to experience itself in this realm in a new way.
Of course, that would mean you'd have to be ok with admitting that Source is already expressing itself as you. And you'd have to be willing to open the spigot of your heart portal, and maybe just let a little bit more Source through... a little bit more of You through.
We do not need to become abundant. We need to stop denying what we already are.
And perhaps the first step is simply this: to notice where you are still apologizing for yourself. Where you are still holding back your aliveness. Where you are still negotiating your truth.
And to gently, steadily, courageously…
Stop.
Because life does not ask you to earn your fullness. It asks you to allow it.
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